Sorry it has taken me so long to get back on here. It has been a busy time in my world! As you may know, Tim and I have been working on the baby’s room forever. I know it seems easy and I may be guilty of thinking the same, but living in a one bedroom condo (with an office) means that every single item has a home. Displacing so many items from the office meant that we had to find new homes for a lot of stuff. This meant more organizing, packing and re-arranging. Basically, we are packing all non-essentials and packing them away until we move…and let me say it’s amazing how many non essentials can creep into your life.
Making the decision to stay in the condo with our first baby wasn’t an easy one, but we figured with enough planning and preparation, we would be fine. We still think that, but let me tell you that doesn’t stop us from dreaming that a) the down payment fairy drops a bundle of $100’s in our lap and/or b) the market improves enough for us to sell our condo at a decent price. While we wait for that fairy – we are constantly making decisions about what stays and gets a new home, what gets donated to charity, what gets packed away and what gets thrown out.
The benefits for all this hard work are vast. Not only are we cleaning out junk spots and re-organizing, but we are having to decide what is important and what isn’t. I have never touched Elliott’s drawer of goodies. I was afraid of the memories and the guilt that would come with that task. Well, I did it! It was hard, but Tim was there to help and to be honest, I threw out as much as I could in good conscience and now that demon I have been avoiding for over a year is banished.
When cleaning out the office, I found Tim’s little black book. Not what you are thinking! For our 1st year together I bought a black book with blank pages and wrote one reason why I loved Tim on each page. There were over 150 entries. So I took a well deserved break and read that little book. I cried a lot reading all the entries. Mostly because they were all still true! What an amazing feeling that was – like a love drug coursing through my veins. The very last entry had been inserted almost 4 years ago when were preparing for our big move to Calgary. It said we were still happy and together and moving on to the next big adventure in our lives. So in keeping with the last entry – we dated a new blank page and inserted that we had recently been married and were expecting our first baby. What a beautiful memory for us as the years continue to pass and our hair turns grey…
So all this cleaning, de-cluttering and organizing have been a royal pain – but it has also reminded me that it’s okay to grieve in whatever way I can (and to take as long as I need – cause I aint done yet). It has reminded me that we can do whatever we put our minds to, that love will help guide us through all of the tough times and that no matter how big your house – there is always way too much junk!
Slowly, our house is getting done…thankfully. I am a minimalist and all this crap lying around drives me crazy – but I now see the light at the end of the tunnel. We are literally just finishing the baby’s room – a major, MAJOR accomplishment. I’ll post a picture once I have it all nicely decorated.
Thanks for your patience and YES…I will finish with Part 2 of the babymoon very soon.
Candee and baby Amelotte
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